Healing from Narcissistic Abuse: A Christian Path to Restoration

Narcissistic abuse is one of the most invisible yet destructive forms of oppression. It doesn't always leave bruises on the body but it deeply wounds the soul, crushes confidence, and leaves many walking through life spiritually fragmented and emotionally lost.

It can come from a spouse, a parent, a spiritual leader, a sibling, or someone you trusted with your heart. Narcissists often enter our lives through manipulation disguised as love, guidance, or protection. But underneath, there’s a darker truth narcissism isn’t just a personality issue. It is a spiritual problem.

Many people who are spiritually chosen or called often find themselves surrounded by narcissists—sometimes from birth. It’s not uncommon for them to be born into families with narcissistic parents. This early exposure is often the enemy’s tactic to begin shaping them through fear, confusion, and trauma. These unhealed wounds can leave them vulnerable to deeper spiritual attacks and manipulation later in life.

Speaking from my own experience as someone raised by a narcissistic parent, I now realize how deeply these roots go. As a child, I regularly suffered from sleep paralysis, and the entities I encountered during those episodes were overwhelmingly dark and oppressive. I also had frequent demonic dreams. Looking back, I understand now that the entities I encountered often reflected the frequency and vibration present in my household emanating from the individuals around me. Their presence mirrored the spiritual atmosphere I was immersed in daily. It was a cycle designed to condition me into fear from a young age, making me more susceptible to spiritual manipulation and less aware of my authority through Christ.

Throughout my life, this pattern continued. I now recognize that many so-called friends and partners also exhibited controlling and manipulative behavior. Some friends tried to isolate me by dictating who I could or couldn’t talk to. Some romantic partners used tactics of sabotage and subtle manipulation. A common trait among them all was projection they would accuse me of things they were actually guilty of themselves.

One thing that still chills me to this day was a phrase repeated often by one of the narcissists in my life: “I know you don’t love me. I’m not the enemy.” No one had even suggested such a thing, which made it clear they were revealing their own hidden truth. Narcissists will gaslight, flatter, and then strike. Every time you elevate, succeed, or walk more confidently in your calling, it unsettles them. Pay attention: the mask always slips.

The Spiritual Reality of Narcissism

Narcissism stems from a deep internal void masked by a carefully constructed false self that thrives on admiration, control, and dominance. These individuals often lack true empathy, leading to patterns of emotional abuse, manipulation, and exploitation. Common tactics include love bombing (showering you with attention to create emotional dependency), gaslighting (causing you to doubt your own reality), triangulation (using others to create jealousy or confusion), and projection (blaming you for the very behaviors they are guilty of). Victims of narcissistic abuse may begin to lose their sense of identity, intuition, and spiritual grounding over time.

From a spiritual lens, narcissists are often operating under demonic influence most notably the Jezebel spirit and Leviathan spirit, which seeks power, worship, and control through deceit. These spirits work to confuse your identity, and interfere with your God-given purpose. Leviathan distorts words, intentions, and conversations leading to confusion and misunderstanding. It’s often at work when two people say one thing but hear something completely different. Leviathan manipulates communication to create offense, strife, and broken relationships. These spirits are not attracted to just anyone they are drawn specifically to people who carry light, purpose, and a divine calling. They are not simply “damaged people” they are vessels being used by darkness to destroy light. Why? Because they seek to drain that light, siphon your energy, and destroy you. Chosen ones, empaths, and spiritually aware individuals are prime targets because their very high vibrating presence threatens to expose darkness. A narcissist will mirror your light at first, making you believe you are safe or even cherished—only to later sabotage, slander, and spiritually deplete you once they’ve fed off your energy. Their aim is not merely emotional damage, but spiritual oppression and fragmentation.

Jesus said, “You will know them by their fruits.” (Matthew 7:16). The fruit of narcissism is manipulation, lying, division, gaslighting, control, and destruction. When someone consistently bears this fruit without repentance, they are no longer just wounding you they are operating in witchcraft, which is rebellion against God (1 Samuel 15:23).

Signs You May Have Been in a Narcissistic Relationship

Whether it was a spouse, a parent, a pastor, or a “friend,” here are some signs you were likely subjected to narcissistic abuse:

• You constantly walked on eggshells, afraid to trigger rage or punishment

• Your voice, feelings, and experiences were minimized, mocked, or ignored

• You were love-bombed, then suddenly devalued and discarded

• You were blamed for their sin, failures, and emotional instability

• You felt crazy or confused even though you knew something was wrong

• You were isolated from others or made to feel that only they “understood” you

• You experienced spiritual manipulation, Scripture twisted to control you

• You began to lose your identity, clarity, and confidence

• You started questioning your discernment and even your connection with God

Dealing with a narcissistic parent can be incredibly challenging, especially when there is triangulation with siblings, which can complicate matters further. One of the most effective strategies is to create space between you and their toxic influence when possible. Limiting conversations to the bare minimum sticking to the facts and avoiding unnecessary explanations helps you maintain control of the situation. This approach not only prevents you from getting caught in endless tangents and circular conversations, but it also minimizes the opportunity for them to twist your words. By keeping conversations factual and brief, you also reduce the chances of them manipulating your statements or lying about what was said.

An example from my experience with a narcissistic parent, any time I did something positive, creative, or admirable—even if I came up with it on my own it was somehow spun to reflect positively on them. If I had a good idea or succeeded in something, the narrative became, “Well, you learned that from me,” or “You get that from me.” It didn’t matter how independently the action was taken; all praise or credit was redirected back to them.

Even when others showed me kindness or affection like extended family members the narcissistic parent would diminish the interaction by suggesting, “They only care about you because you’re my child.” In this way, my identity and achievements were always attached to theirs, never standing on their own.

This is a classic narcissistic tactic known as credit hijacking or self-aggrandizement. Narcissistic parents often blur the line between their child’s accomplishments and their own self-image. They need constant validation and may view their child not as a separate individual, but as an extension of themselves. So anything good that comes from the child is interpreted as a reflection of their own greatness, not the child’s independence.

It’s also a form of emotional control. By making all positive outcomes trace back to them, they subtly train the child to seek their approval and never fully own their own strengths. Over time, this can stunt self-confidence and autonomy, which is exactly what narcissistic individuals want—dependence, not independence.

For teens, this dynamic often feels like walking on eggshells, as it can be hard not to take personal criticisms or comments to heart from a parent. One important practice is to avoid sharing your personal desires or goals with a narcissistic parent, as they are likely to use that information against you. They may even use trivial things to manipulate you if you express that you enjoy something, they might use it against you, such as buying you something you’ve expressed a dislike for, simply to trigger a response or control the situation. An example of how small manipulations can affect you: if you share that you love ice cream, the narcissistic parent might later buy it for a sibling and not for you, or intentionally buy a flavor you dislike just to provoke you. So next time, you might say you hate it just to avoid being targeted. These little games create emotional confusion and a sense of instability around expressing your true self, which over time leads to shrinking your authentic voice. It’s best to keep certain things to yourself, and learn not to take their comments personally. By maintaining emotional distance and boundaries, you protect your peace and prevent them from having any power over your personal feelings or goals. Narcissists are also notorious for lying. You should never assume what they say is the full truth especially when they bring in other people’s names. If they say, “Susie said you’re lazy,” calmly respond, “Thank you for sharing. I’ll speak to Susie directly to hear what she meant in her own words.” This shows that you are grounded, not reactive, and not easily manipulated. When possible, document conversations, save texts, emails, or anything they frequently twist having receipts protects your sanity and brings clarity in moments of doubt.

Trauma bonding happens when abuse is mixed with intermittent moments of kindness or attention, creating confusion and an emotional dependency. As a result, even as adults, many continue to confide in or seek validation from parents who have repeatedly shown that they are not genuinely interested in their child's well-being or elevation especially if that elevation would surpass their own. Unfortunately, many teens trauma bond with narcissistic parents, and this deeply rooted psychological and spiritual bond often continues well into adulthood.

It’s common for adults to still share intimate dreams, plans, or struggles with parents who have demonstrated envy, sabotage, or emotional coldness. Even when the parent has a track record of dismissing their feelings, belittling their goals, or trying to control them through manipulation, guilt, or shame, the inner child within that adult still craves approval and love. But this is where deep spiritual discernment is crucial.

When you are born, your first bond is usually with your caregiver. You naturally believe that their behaviors whether nurturing or toxic are just a part of who they are. You assume their character is “just them,” and you adapt and doing so die in your identity.

Adult Narcissistic Relationships

When it comes to romantic relationships or close friendships with a narcissist, the dynamic can be just as spiritually and psychologically damaging as with a parent though as an adult, you technically have more agency to walk away. However, that doesn't always mean it's easy, especially if you're living with the person or have shared responsibilities like children or finances.

If you're living with a narcissistic partner, it’s crucial to prepare wisely before ending the relationship. Never announce your decision prematurely. Narcissists often react with unpredictable rage when they feel their control is slipping. In extreme cases, their eyes may seem to darken with a chilling emptiness, consumed by the demonic energy of wrath and loss of power. This is not just a metaphor it's spiritual reality manifesting through their behavior.

So if you're planning to leave:

• Make arrangements in secret secure a safe place to go, ideally where they won’t find you easily.

• Have your documents ready (ID, passports, birth certificates, etc.).

• Make financial preparations: open a separate bank account if possible, stash emergency cash.

• Organize care and legal arrangements for your children ahead of time.

• Keep evidence of abuse, manipulation, or control texts, emails, voicemails.

• Let a trusted person know your plan, and if needed, seek support from a shelter or legal advisor.

Leaving a narcissist is not about cowardice it’s about wisdom and survival. Many narcissists use threats, guilt, and spiritual manipulation to make you doubt your ability to live without them. But the truth is: once you reclaim your space, clarity returns. Your energy rises. Your spiritual alignment restores.

When it comes to friendships with narcissists, the best course of action is often to go cold turkey. That means cutting them off completely without long explanations, drawn-out goodbyes, or efforts to get closure. Why? Because narcissists don’t respond to honesty with understanding. They twist your words, misinterpret your intentions, and expertly flip the narrative to make you seem like the unstable or toxic one. It becomes a circular conversation designed to wear you down, not resolve anything.

You don't owe a narcissist an explanation for choosing peace. In fact, giving one only opens the door for manipulation. They will likely accuse you of being too sensitive, crazy, jealous, or even ungrateful. Expect slander. Expect them to play the victim. Expect triangulation where they try to turn mutual friends or even strangers against you.

This is spiritual warfare. The moment a narcissist senses they no longer have control over your emotions, a part of their false power crumbles and their demon-hosted ego cannot handle it. That is when they may lash out spiritually or socially. But remember, their rage is confirmation that you did the right thing.

Your silence is powerful. Your detachment is divine protection.

In matrix terms, Narcissists are designed to keep you stuck in loops.When you're entangled with them, you're not just navigating a toxic relationship you're engaging with a system designed to prevent soul evolution.

Healing Strategy

1. PRAY for Discernment

2. PRAY to Break Soul Ties and Emotional Attachments

3. PRAY for Emotional Healing

4. PRAY to Guard Speech and Response

5. PRAY for Release and Detachment

6. PRAY for Protection

1. Set Boundaries

2. Detach Emotionally

3. Don’t Take It Personally

4. Avoid Arguments

5. Seek Professional Help ( Be careful in whom you confide whether spiritual counselor or not)

6. Guard Your Heart and Mind

7. Release Control to God

8. Forgive, But Do Not Reconcile

A Personal Note from One Mom to Another

Being a mom can be incredibly challenging especially when you're parenting alone without any consistent support, whether financial, emotional, or moral. It’s easy to feel overwhelmed, and many moms find themselves tempted to let “the system” or even extended family take over the role of parenting. Some, out of a desire to provide a father figure, unknowingly invite intruders with negative intentions into their homes, hoping they will help but they end up causing more harm than good.

Let me tell you this plainly: you are all your children need, and what they need most is you with a sound mind and a grounded heart. You can only be truly grounded if you're rooted in the Word of God. Scripture is not just a book it is an anchor, a shield, and a manual for spiritual survival.

People often ask me, “How do you manage?”
Maybe it’s because I was always used to teaching large groups of children I didn’t see it as a big feat. But financially, yes, it was tough. As a mother of four, I often had to work the equivalent of two jobs to sustain us. I’ve relied on help from the church and government when necessary. I worked wherever I could teaching English, babysitting, cleaning, as a classroom teacher, and sometimes in reception. I balanced work and home as best I could.

Thankfully, I had older daughters who were a great help in managing the household and caring for my youngest. Was it perfect? No. But I did my best.

I never really felt I needed anyone else, but I always wanted to do better to build a business, something I could pass on as a legacy. As I write this now, I have two preteens, a ten-year-old, and a soon-to-be first grader. The most important thing I have instilled in them and continue to is to trust and have faith in God in all things.

We praise God in our home.
We set aside time and space for Him as a family.
That is the glue that holds everything together even when things look like they’re falling apart. It is what helps you face all obstacles with courage, knowing the Lord is your strength.

“Unless the Lord builds the house, the builders labor in vain.”
— Psalm 127:1

Let God be the center of your home. Without Him, it all crumbles. But with Him, you are never alone, never uncovered, and never without power.

Prayer Strategies for the Single Christian Mom

1. Cover your children daily in prayer.
   Pray for their minds, hearts, friendships, identity, and future. Ask God to keep them from evil, deception, and peer pressure. Call them by name and declare God’s promises over their lives. A mother's prayer carries power in the spirit.

2. Pray for your home atmosphere.
   Walk through your home and anoint it with oil if you can. Rebuke anything that does not align with peace and order. Declare your home as a dwelling place for the Holy Spirit, where no demonic oppression or division can rest.

3. Guard your gates — physical and spiritual.
   Ask the Lord to give you discernment about who enters your home, who interacts with your children, and what is watched, listened to, or spoken. Your household must be spiritually fortified.

4. Ask for strength, peace, and wisdom.
   Single motherhood can be emotionally draining. Go to God boldly and ask Him to sustain you — mentally, spiritually, emotionally, and physically. He will be your helper and provider.

5. Pray over your finances.
   Invite God into your budgeting and financial decisions. Ask for provision, creative ideas, resources, and doors of opportunity. Rebuke every devourer and speak abundance and overflow into your household.

6. Rebuke the spirit of loneliness and desperation.
   Pray for contentment in your season. Ask the Lord to heal wounds of rejection, abandonment, and fear. Ask Him to protect you from forming ungodly ties out of loneliness or lack. You are complete in Christ.

How to Gather Your Children for Prayer

One of the most powerful things you can do as a single mother is to create a culture of prayer in your home. It doesn’t have to be perfect or formal it just has to be consistent. Here are some ways to start building that habit:

• Choose a dedicated time and space. Pick a time that works maybe before bed or after dinner and gather in one room, even if it’s just for 10 minutes.

• Have a family Bible. Get a children’s Bible or even a simple King James or NLT version for older kids. Let them each take turns reading a verse or a Psalm aloud. Psalms are great because they speak of protection, praise, and God’s faithfulness.

• Teach them how to pray. Show them how to speak to God like a friend. Teach simple prayers at first and then allow them to start praying in their own words.

• Use anointing oil. Anoint their heads or their hands as you pray for their day or night. It’s a powerful act of dedication and spiritual covering.

• Light a candle and burn incense if you feel led. I personally light a candle and burn incense as we pray it sets a reverent and calming atmosphere. But this is personal; some may choose not to. Do what aligns with your convictions and feels holy to you.

• Include worship. Play a worship song, let them sing or dance make praising God joyful and not a chore.

• Write down prayer requests. Keep a family prayer notebook. It helps children see how God answers prayers and builds their faith.

A Final Word

You may feel like you're doing this alone, but you’re not. God is your covering, your defender, and your provider. Being a single mom may be your circumstance, but it’s not your identity. You are a daughter of the Most High, and your obedience, sacrifice, and love for your children do not go unnoticed in heaven. Keep standing. Keep building. Keep praying. You are raising warriors — and your house will be built on the rock.

In our journey through this complex reality, it is essential to approach the world with both discernment and humility. As we awaken to the true nature of the world around us, we often begin to notice that not everyone is fully aware or conscious. This awakening can bring a sense of isolation, frustration, and even confusion, especially when we realize that certain people around us may not be as "real" as we once thought. But as we move through this awakening process, it's important to avoid falling into the trap of ego and overly undervaluing others, even those we suspect might be NPCs (Non-Playable Characters) in this reality.

We must remember that the energy we have invested in this simulation is part of our growth process. If this is a simulation then technically all the experiences, relationships, and lessons we encounter, including interactions with NPCs, are all part of the larger picture. These interactions, though sometimes frustrating, are meant to contribute to our soul's development and activation. The NPCs we encounter are not necessarily here to harm us, but they are often part of a system designed to keep the matrix going. It’s easy to view them as a threat, as agents of a system that seeks to drain our energy and maintain power, but they also represent an opportunity to rise above the matrix's limitations, spiritually.

At the same time, we need to remain vigilant. The matrix will attempt to send counterfeits, individuals who are designed to manipulate, distract, or disrupt our path. While we must treat others with respect and integrity, we should also exercise discernment and caution. It’s essential to keep your boundaries intact.

It’s crucial that we do not let the existence of NPCs, or even the intentional disruption of their behaviors, lead us into arrogance or frustration. We must not fall into the trap of assuming that they are inherently beneath us or that they do not deserve the same respect as other human beings. Instead, it’s important to maintain the essence of who we are. If someone is polite to you, be polite back. If they are disrespectful, continue to respond with civility. Do not let their behavior provoke you into reacting in a way that is out of character for you. The key here is to stay grounded, stay in alignment with your values, and demonstrate that you are a child of God, regardless of what the NPCs around you might do.

From my own experience, when I first realized that I was surrounded by NPCs—even the neighbors who would follow me—I made a conscious decision to remain aloof. These individuals, though they may act in ways that seem odd or manipulative, are often just playing out their programmed roles. Unless they actively disrespected me, I chose not to react. I didn’t attack them or engage in negative energy; instead, I observed them and held them accountable. I noticed many of them repeating the same narratives, speaking about narratives that I no longer believed had anything to do with me or my reality. They seemed stuck in loops. Rather than becoming emotionally entangled in their behaviors, I simply moved forward with my day.

The goal is to not get caught up in the ego of thinking that you need to act differently towards them or let their actions affect you. Real people wouldn't go out of their way to provoke or taunt you with things that aren't relevant to you. So, when I overheard them smirking, gossiping, or talking about things that weren’t true, I reminded myself they were NPCs. They were looping and trying to remind me or keep me stuck in the narrative I was now putting behind me. I employed a psychological technique to detach, telling myself that these provocations didn’t matter. They were just playing out their roles, and I didn’t need to give them more energy than they deserved.

It’s completely natural to occasionally feel the urge to respond to someone who is targeting or provoking you, especially when you're being relentlessly pushed or triggered as gangstalkers will do. However, just as you can exercise self-control in the workplace, even when dealing with a difficult employer, you can apply that same discipline to interactions with NPCs or individuals attempting to manipulate or control you. Reacting impulsively or with negativity is what the matrix wants—it thrives on the emotional chaos and turmoil it can stir within us. In fact, your ability to remain calm, not over think yourself into anxiety or panic and remain composed and non-reactive are what truly separates you from the NPCs or people who are still asleep in this system. Those who maintain self-control, despite the pressure to react, are the ones who "win the game." Many of the things done to me during my own gang-stalking experience, especially after I no longer subscribed to the narrative being fed to me, were clearly designed to provoke a reaction—an emotional outburst that could discredit me or label me as unstable. This was particularly the case since my calling was to write and speak to a larger audience. The matrix sought to silence me by triggering emotional responses, which would undermine my credibility. But by resisting the urge to react, I demonstrated that I was in control—not them.

Ultimately, we must walk a fine line. We are here to live with love, kindness, and humility, but we must also recognize when we are being manipulated or controlled. Stay grounded, stay true to your values, and above all, remain a beacon of light, regardless of who or what surrounds you. The NPCs, though they may appear to be obstacles, are also a part of the process.

Technology today is being used as a tool to hijack our minds and drain our energy. News spreads faster than ever before—but most of the information we receive is designed to provoke negative emotions: fear, anger, sadness, confusion.

If we pay attention to the type of news constantly being pushed—talks of war, psyops, financial crashes, sudden celebrity deaths—it becomes clear that this is not random. When analyzed using Gematria, many of these events show connections to scripted, satanic agendas that often align with occult calendars and significant astrological dates. These are not coincidences. They are spiritual countermeasures.

Why? Because during these key astrological or spiritual moments, high-vibrational, uplifting frequencies are being released in the spirit realm. These frequencies are meant to help us align with truth, clarity, healing, and divine purpose. But if we're mentally and emotionally consumed by fear-based narratives, we miss the opportunity to receive and align with what God is trying to release.

It’s no different from how concerts, festivals, and large public events are often used to harvest collective energy. These gatherings pull thousands of people into one frequency—usually excitement or worship of a performer—which can then be siphoned for spiritual rituals and agendas hidden behind the scenes.

The same thing happens through our screens. From the moment we wake up and check our phones, until we go to bed—if we're consuming content that fuels despair, distraction, or division—our energy is being harvested. We unknowingly give our power away to this matrix system every time we allow ourselves to be emotionally manipulated by its narratives.

What You Can Do to Protect Your Energy in a Hijacked System

1. Guard Your Digital Entry Points
Be mindful of what you consume first thing in the morning. Do not let the news, social media, or chaotic group chats be your first spiritual meal of the day. Start with prayer, Scripture, or silence instead.

2. Learn to Read Between the Lines
Once you realize how many global events are timed and orchestrated to match spiritual energy shifts, you stop reacting and start discerning. Look beyond the headlines. Ask: What is this trying to provoke in me?

3. Disconnect Regularly
Create space in your week for tech-free time. Rest your eyes. Center your spirit. Let your own thoughts rise up again. Technology creates constant mental noise—your spiritual clarity lives in the quiet.

4. Don't Co-Sign the Spell
Sharing a fear-filled post, repeating a death announcement, or emotionally spiraling because of a psyop fuels the ritual. You participate in the very frequency they want to spread. Break the cycle by responding from peace and purpose, not panic.

5. Strengthen Your Spiritual Armor
Use discernment, prayer, and fasting to stay in alignment with God's plan. The goal is not to fear the matrix, but to rise above it—to be in the world but not of it. When your spirit is strong, you become harder to manipulate.

Spiritual Junk: Watching What Pollutes the Soul

Just like junk food weakens the body, spiritual junk weakens the soul. Many of us consume shows, music, movies, and content that are deeply polluted with perversion, violence, sorcery, and deception. These aren't just harmless forms of entertainment—they are spiritual open doors. Constant exposure to content that glorifies sin, distorts reality, or pushes anti-God narratives chips away at your discernment. It desensitizes your spirit, clouds your intuition, and makes it harder to hear from God. Even watching people argue online, bingeing on gossip channels, or tuning into mindless content for hours—it's all pollution. If it doesn’t feed your purpose, strengthen your spirit, or sharpen your discernment, it’s junk. And junk clogs the spiritual system. Protect your gates—your eyes, your ears, your spirit. The matrix wants you distracted and dull. God wants you awake and equipped.

The matrix feeds on attention. Every scroll, every tap, every click is an energetic agreement. Don’t hand over your mental and emotional authority so easily. Choose what you consume. Protect your frequency. Reclaim your power.

In a world obsessed with sex, instant gratification, and casual encounters, many have forgotten the spiritual weight of sexual intimacy. But for the awakened soul, there’s a shift happening—especially for women called to higher purpose. We’re remembering that our wombs are not public property. They are sacred centers of creation, power, and divine energy.

Your Womb Is Not a Playground—It’s a Portal

The womb is not just a biological organ; it is a spiritual gateway. Through it, life is born. It is where ideas are incubated, dreams are conceived, and energy is held.

When we lie down with someone, we don’t just share skin—we share spirit. Every sexual encounter is an energy exchange. And when that exchange is careless or misaligned, the sacred vessel becomes contaminated, confused, and weakened. Many women feel emotionally drained, anxious, or spiritually disconnected after sex—because their womb has absorbed energies never meant to dwell there.

Reclaiming Power Through Celibacy

Celibacy is not about repression. It’s about preserving your divine feminine energy inward instead of leaking it outward. By choosing celibacy:

• You guard your womb from spiritual pollution.

• You break soul ties and cleanse emotional residue.

• You gain spiritual clarity, emotional stability, and creative fire.

• You take back dominion over your body and spirit.

Celibacy is a holy refusal to let counterfeit lovers drain the power God gave you to birth purpose.

Men, This Applies to You Too: The Power of Semen Retention

Just as women are called to protect the womb, men are called to protect the seed. Semen is not just fluid—it is spiritual substance, the carrier of DNA, legacy, and energetic force.

Men who waste their seed through casual sex or porn are often:

Spiritually stagnant

Emotionally unstable

Low in motivation and focus

But when men retain their seed, especially with purpose and prayer:

They develop strength, vision, and divine clarity.

Their creative and leadership energy increases.

They become more aligned with their kingdom assignment.

God did not create sex to be random. The Word is clear:
"Flee from sexual immorality. All other sins a person commits are outside the body, but whoever sins sexually, sins against their own body." – 1 Corinthians 6:18

Our bodies are temples. And the bed is to be undefiled (Hebrews 13:4). When we misuse our sexuality, we not only sin—we misalign with purpose.

God created sex as a covenant exchange—not a casual release. Every time we give ourselves to someone without spiritual covering, we bind ourselves and weaken our authority.If you’re going through spiritual warfare, then celibacy isn’t optional it’s essential. In times of intense spiritual battle, any sin especially sexual sin acts like an open door. It gives legal access to demonic forces to interfere, oppress, or torment.

Unholy unions tie your soul to spirits you were never meant to entangle with, weakening your spiritual armor. Every act outside of God's covering becomes a license for the enemy to attack. That’s why abstaining during warfare isn’t about rules—it’s about survival.

You can’t cast out what you’re still sleeping with.
You can’t fight hell while holding hands with it.

Celibacy is Creative Protection

Many women ask, “Why do I feel blocked creatively or spiritually?” Often, it’s because unholy unions have robbed you of your essence. When you choose celibacy, you don’t just say “no” to sex you say “yes” to destiny. You reclaim the fire in your womb. You hear God clearer. You birth books, businesses, songs, visions. begin to flow through.

Personally, I’ve been abstinent for almost two years now, and the deeper I grow spiritually, the more I realize how vital this separation is. When you begin to ascend energetically, you no longer crave surface-level connections based on lust or fleeting desire. You start to long for something truly godly—something rooted in spirit, not flesh. And to find that, you must test the spirit in others. It takes time, discernment, and the removal of all distractions—especially those tied to appearance or instant gratification. True spiritual union requires depth, patience, and divine alignment.

This is the hour to walk in holiness, intentionality, and full spiritual authority not halfway, not lukewarm, but fully awakened, fully armored, and fully surrendered to the call of righteousness. The time for compromise is over.

We are living in an intense spiritual battle where the enemy wages silent frequency warfare against God's children. Every day, our senses are bombarded with low-vibrational noise meant to drain us, distract us, and ultimately sever our connection with the Most High.
If we want to survive, thrive, and walk in the fullness of who we are called to be, we must be intentional about maintaining our vibration high.

One of the most powerful ways to raise your frequency is by being in nature and surrounding yourself with God’s creations. Trees, rivers, mountains, beaches, flowers, even animals — all these carry the Creator's original, healing frequencies. Even if you live in a city with little greenery, make it a priority to find natural environments to recharge and realign.

Spending time in solitude is another crucial step. Isolation is not punishment; it is refinement. It gives you the space to speak to God clearly, without the chatter of the world clouding your mind. Focus on doing things you enjoy as much as possible — activities that nourish your spirit and bring you joy without harming your soul.

Another simple but powerful practice is grounding — walking barefoot on the grass, soil, or sand.
When you ground yourself, you allow the earth’s natural healing energy to flow into your body, discharging the built-up static and restoring balance.
Grounding reconnects you physically and spiritually to God's creation.

Other powerful ways to protect and raise your frequency include:

• Listening to pure tone frequencies especially as you go to bed. (e.g., 432 Hz, 528 Hz, etc.)

• Humming or singing to create healing vibrations within your body
  (I personally hummed for an hour and immediately felt lighter and more balanced — the body responds to pure sound!)

• Praying and fasting regularly to stay spiritually fortified.

• Wearing copper or gold if possible — these metals have conductive properties that amplify your energy field and offer spiritual protection.

• Eating foods that are alive — fruits, vegetables, seeds — not dense, dead, processed foods that lower your energy.

Be extremely selective with what you consume through your eyes and ears. Your eyes are the windows to your soul. You cannot expect to maintain a high vibration while watching violent shows, engaging with dark humor, or flooding your mind with negativity from the news.

Jesus Himself warned us:

“The eye is the lamp of the body. If your eyes are healthy, your whole body will be full of light. But if your eyes are unhealthy, your whole body will be full of darkness.”
— Matthew 6:22-23 (NIV)

The world is filled with entertainment and media designed to normalize sin, fear, confusion, and perversion, Spiritual junk food.

Your Frequency is Your Shield

Higher vibration = stronger spiritual immune system.

Lower astral beings thrive on fear, anger, depression, lust, envy — low-frequency emotions. If you consistently live in peace, gratitude, love, clarity, and divine connection, your "signal" becomes unreachable to them.

2. Energy Hygiene is Like Physical Hygiene

Just like you shower daily, you must clean your energy daily.

Methods: prayer, worship, praise, breathwork, anointing oil, reading Scripture aloud (especially Psalms), salt baths, smudging with frankincense or pure myrrh.

3. Emotions are Frequency Setpoints

Joy, gratitude, faith = high frequencies.

Resentment, self-pity, fear = low frequencies.

Discipline your mind to reject spirals of negativity. Don’t entertain "mental visitors" from lower realms — they ride emotional resonance.

4. Physical Body Anchors Spiritual Strength

Eat foods with high life-force (organic fruits, vegetables, pure water).

Sleep well. Move your body.

Toxic food and chronic fatigue open energetic rips that allow low-level astrals to stick to you.

5. Forgiveness is Quantum Acceleration

Holding grudges binds your frequency to dark realms.

Forgiveness releases the "cords" that enemies (including spiritual ones) use to latch onto your energy body.

6. Truth Aligns Frequency

Living in truth — being authentic, rejecting lies, refusing deception — automatically raises your vibration.

Lower astral entities feed on self-delusion and compromise.

7. Worship = Spiritual Firewall

Worship and sincere adoration of God sends shockwaves through the astral planes.

Many low-frequency entities cannot tolerate the sound waves and light waves generated by true worship.

8. Environmental Frequencies Matter

Where you live, the objects in your home, the music you listen to, the shows you watch — all emit frequencies.

If your environment is chaotic, filthy, or saturated with occult or worldly energy, it lowers your own.

9. Authority and Agreement

Low astral energies often seek "permission" to attach — through sin, despair, fear, or participation in their games.

Raising your frequency includes actively revoking agreements (spoken or unspoken) with darkness.

10. Active Light Transmission

People mistakenly think they must always be defensive.

When you are filled with the Holy Spirit or the light of God, you don't just block darkness — you push it back.

Astral parasites scatter when the light is too strong.

Every single day, you must choose — Stay awake. Stay holy. Stay high in spirit.
The war is real, but if God is with you, you have already won.

When I Realized NPCs Can Be Hacked: Observations from France

Most people think of mind control as something out of a sci-fi movie, but when you’ve been spiritually awakened—especially as a chosen one—you begin to see that the matrix we live in isn’t just metaphorical. It’s real, and it’s strategic. One of the most startling realizations I’ve had over the years is that many people are not operating with full, independent consciousness. Some individuals—what many of us now refer to as “NPCs” (non-player characters)—can be hacked and programmed, especially by parasitic or power-controlling entities in the matrix.

This revelation became especially clear to me after I moved to France and started working in a new professional environment. It was there, in day-to-day interactions with coworkers, that I began to notice very strange behaviors—subtle at first, but increasingly hard to ignore.

What struck me about several of them was their weak sense of self. There were moments where it seemed like they were operating on a script—especially one coworker, who would often say things completely unrelated to the topic at hand in our conversations, almost as if she was told what to say in advance by something or someone else. These weren’t just odd conversational tangents; they felt out of place, robotic, and emotionally detached. There were many moments when I noticed this phenomenon. Their words didn’t align with their emotional responses, or they would try to suppress their emotions by quickly changing the subject—especially if I shared something personal or deeply emotional. It was as if someone had trained them to respond with detachment, almost like they’d been told, “Don’t feel anything if she tells you a sad story.” In some cases, it became especially noticeable when I was thinking or writing about spiritually sensitive topics for my blog during my free time at work. One individual, in particular, would come into distract me often approaching with superficial small talk. I also witnessed similar behavior at previous employments: someone engaging in conversation that felt disconnected, yet checking messages (supposedly) on their phone as if they were being directed what to say and do during the interaction with me. The questions didn’t feel genuine and the energy was off. You can always sense the difference between someone truly listening with presence and someone talking around you nervously, almost mindlessly, as if being directed.

Beyond this, I began to notice certain individuals frequently holding one-to-one meetings that didn’t seem related to teaching or school business. I don’t have concrete proof, but intuitively, it felt off. The energy shifted noticeably especially when the individuals in these meetings saw me. It was the kind of atmosphere you feel when you walk into a room and sense that people had just been talking about you, or like someone finally seeing in person the person they've been training against. Something was being directed behind the scenes.

There was another key incident that deepened my understanding. One morning, while commuting to work on the train, a teenage girl and a middle-aged man boarded and, almost too eagerly, chose to sit directly across from me.

Shortly after sitting, the man began looking at his phone, I was daydreaming visualizing in my mind with my eyes closed. A moment later, I felt a sharp pain in my heart center, like a sudden energetic hit, what stood out was the way he held it, subtly pointed directly at me. The teenage girl then turned to him and calmly said, “That’s enough” The man didn’t say a word—he just looked at his phone, seemingly following unspoken instructions. She also took a turn and aimed for my Throat area what otherwise would be my throat energy zone.

That moment jolted me. A teenager instructing a grown man, who complied without resistance—it made something click. These parasitic entities use whoever they can control. In this case, the girl seemed to be the one with authority, as if the parasite operating through her was directing the man like a servant. This was the second time I had been attacked with frequency. The first had happened shortly after I arrived in France.

The point being, these parasites can operate through any npc—family, coworkers, strangers. In places like the Mediterranean, I’ve noticed many adolescents acting as carriers of these entities. The parasites feed the npcs the narratives, and the NPCs respond like programmed vessels.

And that’s when the deeper truth clicked: NPCs can be hacked. They can be used by demonic entities, or even collective hive minds within the matrix system.

Chosen ones have been asleep. But those with dark agendas, have been very busy. They’re highly trained in how to override these empty or weak vessels.

This is spiritual warfare at its finest—subtle, strategic, and coded into the everyday. Once your eyes are open, you can’t unsee it. Though, just as they only need a few hosts to infiltrate and control, God only needs a small remnant of enough awakened, chosen people—to expose, dismantle, and ultimately destroy them. It’s not about numbers; it’s about spiritual authority. When the truly awakened begin to walk in that authority, the illusion starts to crumble, and the parasites lose power. WE HAVE AUTHORITY AND DOMINION.

As we awaken to the deeper truths of this world, one of the most challenging and dangerous areas to navigate is love. Love in the matrix has been heavily distorted, filled with traps, false connections, and spiritual counterfeits. The enemy loves to send false relationships into the lives of the awakened, designed to distract, destroy, and manipulate you off your path. These setups may seem like genuine answers to your longing for love but are often intentionally placed to derail your purpose and delay your destiny.

In a world where the percentage of truly "real" people is low—and where those rare souls are often scattered beyond your immediate environment—the risk of encountering a counterfeit or an NPC (non-playable character) is extremely high. If you are being targeted, you must be especially vigilant. The deeper you awaken, the more these counterfeit relationships will be sent to you with intensity and precision. They are spiritual traps.

The Enemy Studies Your Weaknesses
You may notice a pattern: until you shift your frequency, you keep meeting the same type of toxic individuals. It is not coincidence. The enemy knows that most people select partners based on lust, attraction, or unresolved wounds, rather than holy discernment. The enemy will use your "type" against you. Your attractions, if unexamined, can be weaponized to your destruction.

Choosing whom you form covenants with—whether through marriage or intimacy—is one of the most important spiritual decisions you will ever make. This isn’t just about marriage on paper. Every act of physical intimacy is a spiritual covenant. It is a binding on the soul level. Despite the world glorifying casual sex, it is spiritual death. Every person you sleep with leaves an imprint on your soul. You pick up every demon they carry, and in turn, you also take on the spiritual baggage of everyone they have ever been intimate with.

The Bed as an Altar
Sexual intimacy is not just a physical act; it is spiritual. The bed becomes an altar where covenants are sealed with blood, secretions, and energy exchange. To sleep with someone in your dreams also demands immediate rebuke—it signifies spiritual soul ties with marine entities and dark spirits that work to bind and hinder your progress. Every exchange of bodily fluids is a ritual in the spirit realm. It has consequences.

There are men who deliberately seek to extract fluids from women during intimacy as a way of spiritually sealing their fates. Some will even intentionally try to cause bleeding to amplify the spiritual binding. There are men who impregnate women for the sole purpose of trapping them—keeping them distracted, tied down, and stuck in loops, unable to progress. Likewise, there are women who keep men financially, emotionally, or spiritually unstable and tied for their own benefit.

The Devastation of Sleeping with the Enemy
The worst discovery you can make is realizing you are sleeping with the enemy. I speak from personal experience.

I once encountered a narcissist who mirrored many of the patterns I had begun to recognize but ignored. Physically, he was exactly my type. I met this man on a night when there was a big buzz that day on social media that the moon was in Virgo. Strangely, he shared the exact same birthday as me, just three years older but we were also both virgos. Spiritually, these seemed like signs of alignment on the surface, it masked a deeper, harmful agenda from the enemy.

Almost immediately, I noticed things were off. His comments and demeanor reflected deep narcissistic traits. On one occasion during intimacy, he tried to push himself into me at a precise angle to intentionally hit my cervix, causing me to bleed—even though I was not on my period. Afterwards, he tried to manipulate me, gaslighting and claiming that I must have known I had my period, trying to embarrass me and make me doubt myself.

It wasn’t just that incident. I remember trying to discuss work issues with him once, it irritated him because I also made more money and not only did he completely dismiss it, but something about his energy made me feel spiritually dirty. Maybe it was the blackness in his eyes, or the way his facial expressions would almost contort in an inhuman way, but there was a deep sense of filth and darkness that radiated from him.

Like many narcissists, he was extremely insecure under the surface and needed constant ego validation. Over time, I realized he was setting me up to fall into the very fear-based narrative the matrix had been trying to pin on me for years. Since I had no real friends around me at the time and he was the sole person close enough to me to pull it off. It reinforced to me how important it is to be vigilant about who you choose to lie down with.

Fornication gives the enemy legal license to interfere in your life. It opens spiritual portals and permissions that cannot easily be undone. In my view, all narcissists are demonically possessed to varying degrees because of unresolved traumas they have allowed to fester, which the enemy uses to gain full access to their souls.

Discernment is Survival
Choosing who you allow into your body, mind, and spirit is not casual. It is survival. If you are awakening, targeted, or carrying a divine assignment, understand that your love life is a battleground. Discernment is your shield. Don't give the enemy the tools to bind you through lust, loneliness, or emotional weakness.

True love in the matrix does exist, despite the heavy warfare and deception surrounding relationships today. We should never allow the counterfeits and the pain of past experiences to harden our hearts or convince us otherwise. Love, when chosen through God and not through flesh, has the power to fulfill us, uplift us, and contribute to our spiritual expansion. A God-ordained relationship will not drain you; it will water you. It will not confuse you; it will bring clarity. When we allow God to select our partner, we align ourselves with someone who complements our purpose, strengthens our walk, and becomes a source of mutual growth and joy. Real love is worth waiting, praying, and preparing for. Wait for the one God has truly ordained, not the counterfeit sent to steal your crown.

On a personal note, when I first began to awaken, I started to look back on my entire life—friends from high school, old coworkers, even family members—and I began asking myself a hard but necessary question: Were they real, or were they programmed? I made a list, person by person, reflecting on their attributes and behaviors. I remembered the ones who loved to gossip, the ones who never seemed to grow or change even after many years, the ones with whom it was always hard to have deep, meaningful conversations. I realized that many of the people closest to me had served as distractions, emotional drains, or subtle discouragers at pivotal points in my life. This exercise was painful but freeing—it taught me to test the spirit, not the image, and to value quality of connection over history or sentimentality.

It’s very easy for us to think of rude strangers, difficult co-workers, and harsh bosses as NPCs (non-player characters)—and often, they are. Their mechanical behaviors, programmed responses, and lack of true empathy make them easy to spot after you begin to awaken.

But what isn’t so easy to accept—yet is absolutely necessary—is the possibility that some of our own family members and friends may also be NPCs or operating under heavy programming.

This realization can be painful. These are the individuals who have the most access to us, who can impact our lives the most deeply, and who the enemy can use to sow the most doubt, confusion, or sabotage.

As soon as you begin to awaken, you must start vetting the people around you. It’s not optional. Keep your friends close—but keep your enemies closer. This doesn't mean that every NPC or programmed person near you is actively your enemy yet, but you must understand that they can become tools of the matrix at any moment once your awakening becomes detected.

When your spiritual radar activates, TRUST NO ONE blindly. Test their character. Test their spirit. Watch behavior, not just words. Pay attention.

There are also individuals who technically have souls but are living like NPCs because they are deeply asleep. These people are highly suggestible and easily manipulated—and that makes them dangerous liabilities to have too close to your inner circle.

How to Test the Spirit Around You:

• Notice how they respond to your growth. True allies celebrate your wins and your light. Programmed ones feel triggered by it.

• Pay attention to subtle patterns of belittling. Do they constantly downplay your ideas, mock your intuition, or make you feel "crazy" for trusting your gut?

• Watch for chronic discomfort. If someone regularly leaves you feeling drained, uneasy, doubting yourself, or emotionally minimized, it's not random—it’s revealing.

• Observe who tries to dim your light. Be wary of those who criticize your passions, ridicule your dreams, or subtly encourage you to shrink.

• Test reactions to spiritual conversations. Souls who are aligned with growth will feel energized by higher conversations. Programmed beings will react with mockery, silence, discomfort, or disdain.

• Evaluate loyalty in adversity. True souls stay solid when attacks come. Programmed ones shift, betray, gossip, or disappear.

Scripture reminds us in 1 John 4:1, "Beloved, do not believe every spirit, but test the spirits to see whether they are from God."
Your discernment is a divine weapon. Use it without apology.

The truth is: not everyone around you is fully real. Not everyone cheering you on actually wants you to win. And not every smile is pure.

In these times, your ability to recognize who is truly of the light—and who is of the matrix— will determine how far and how protected you will go in your assignment.

As you awaken, the matrix doesn't just passively watch—it actively counters. It will purposely send counterfeits and sabotagers into your sphere. These individuals may appear as friends, romantic interests, business opportunities, or "helpful" mentors. They are strategically placed to waste your time, distract your focus, siphon your energy, and derail your mission. Understand: every level of your spiritual elevation triggers a counterattack. The more valuable your assignment, the more strategic the opposition will be. Stay anchored in prayer and discernment, because not everything good is sent by God—and not every door that opens is meant for you to walk through.

You are not called to live in fear—but you are called to live in wisdom. Stay vigilant. Stay prayed up. And above all, stay close to the true voice of the Spirit within you.

There is a deeper reason why certain people are in your life. Soul contracts are agreements made before birth by souled individuals to aid one another in spiritual growth. This includes friends, mentors, and even enemies. Yes, even those who hurt us can be fulfilling a role that sharpens our discernment, forces us to rise, and helps us see our worth and purpose more clearly. These interactions, though painful, often mark pivotal moments in our awakening.

Then, there are spiritual assignments—tasks your soul came into this realm to complete. These are unique to you. And if you are chosen, your path is often filled with more spiritual warfare than others might encounter. That’s not coincidence—it’s confirmation. The enemy does not attack the unthreatening. He disrupts, deters, distracts, and deceives to prevent chosen ones from fulfilling divine missions. Remember: the thief comes only to steal, kill, and destroy (John 10:10). But Christ came so that we may have life and have it more abundantly.

Being placed in families with NPC relatives, narcissistic or Jezebel-type personalities, or even assigned spiritual handlers, is not random. These individuals are often part of the enemy's plan to lower your vibration, confuse your identity, make you doubt yourself, and kill your confidence and CREATE DISTRACTIONS. Their presence is designed to keep you from walking boldly in your calling.

You are not crazy. You are chosen. Many of us have been gaslit into silence, told we’re "too sensitive," "paranoid," or "delusional." But what if your sensitivity is a spiritual radar? What if your discomfort is discernment? If you’re questioning your surroundings, your relationships, your patterns, you’re awakening. That is not a curse—it is a spiritual gift.

When the attacks increase, so does the evidence of your anointing. Stand firm. Learn the patterns. Recognize the traps. Break the cycles. Your assignment is too important to abort. Soul contracts may shape you, but spiritual discernment will preserve you.

Many of the betrayals, losses, and painful separations you have endured were not punishments—they were realignments. The removal of people from your life often precedes the release into your next level. When you cling to expired soul contracts out of guilt, fear, or obligation, you delay your own elevation. Trust that when doors close, it is often God's protection in disguise.

Chosen ones often experience "the wilderness season"—periods of isolation where you feel unseen, misunderstood, and even abandoned. But understand: God isolates before He elevates. Your spiritual assignments require separation from distractions, counterfeits, and infiltrators. Isolation is not rejection; it is preparation.

It’s also crucial to understand that while some people are in your life to fulfill contracts, not all are meant to stay. Some contracts expire once their lesson is complete. Release with forgiveness, not bitterness. Set boundaries without apology. Honor your growth without guilt. You were never created to stay stagnant or small.

In this journey, clarity is your weapon, faith is your shield, and obedience is your strategy. Stay rooted in your identity in Christ. Stay sensitive to the nudges of the Holy Spirit. And stay committed to completing what your soul was sent here to do.

You are not here by accident. You are not imagining the battles. You are a warrior with a mission sealed in Heaven.

Walk it out boldly. Heaven is backing you.

Have you ever felt like your life is a scripted show? That your choices, relationships, and even "random" encounters are not truly random at all? This is exactly what The Truman Show movie illustrated—a powerful allegory for what many Chosen Ones experience in real life.

In The Truman Show, Truman Burbank lives inside an artificial world where everyone around him—his wife, his best friend, even strangers—are actors. They work together to condition him through fear: fear of the ocean, fear of exploring, fear of questioning. Truman is subtly but constantly discouraged from thinking outside the box. His handlers (like his wife) and even his own "mother" attempt to distract him with nostalgia—using sentimental memories and emotional manipulation to keep him anchored in their script.

Another important thing shown in The Truman Show is how they could even manipulate the weather to control Truman’s emotions, decisions, and movements.The Truman Show, which came out in 1998, blatantly showed humanity so many hidden truths right to our faces, but most of us were too asleep to recognize them at the time. It was never "just a movie"

When Truman begins to notice synchronicities—people appearing in loops, strange repeated events, "coincidences" that don’t add up—his true awakening begins. He realizes that if he fully discovers the truth, they can no longer keep him trapped. This mirrors real life: once you truly awaken, the Matrix must either neutralize you or lose control over you.

In the movie, when Truman starts to pull away emotionally, the creators attempt to insert counterfeit love interests to re-engage him. This reflects what happens to Chosen Ones: as you begin to awaken, the Matrix tries to send counterfeits—people designed to distract, derail, and delay you.

They also attempt to pull on his traumas—especially through his missing father. They use this wound as an emotional hook, trying to create confusion and longing that would tether Truman back into their control. Emotional manipulation through unresolved trauma is one of the Matrix’s strongest tools for maintaining the illusion.

Even the way Truman is constantly watched—24/7 surveillance by the entire world—parallels the experience of many targeted individuals today. In the real world, however, it goes deeper. The NPCs (non-player characters) surrounding Chosen Ones function as a hive mind. They don’t need phones, cameras, or high-tech gadgets to monitor you, although they often pretend to be on their phones to make it seem natural.

At first, I myself believed that perhaps there were hidden cameras placed in my home, or that some secret dark-web surveillance system was being used. Remote Neural Monitoring and similar technologies have even been patented and slowly introduced into public knowledge. However, in my personal experience and discernment, this is only a partial truth: these technologies are likely being disclosed so that when mass awakenings happen, there will be a plausible, earthly explanation to calm the panic.

The truth is:
NPCs already have the ability to surveil Chosen Ones spiritually—no phone, no camera necessary. They operate through a legion consciousness, reading thoughts, emotions, and energetic shifts. Their "looking down at their phones" during gangstalking is simply a cover action to make their supernatural connection seem technological.

As Truman learned, the real battle is not external—it’s the war for your mind and your soul.
When you see the patterns, the counterfeits, the distractions—you are winning.
When you refuse to be fear-conditioned—you are breaking free.
When you discern truth through the noise—you are no longer just surviving; you are awakening.

Stay discerning. Stay sacred. Stay sovereign.

When I first arrived in France, I didn’t have many contacts. The only person I knew gave me a number for someone renting out a studio apartment near my workplace at the time. But from the moment I saw the apartment, I didn’t like it. It had no windows, the area didn’t feel right, and the setup gave me a heavy, unsettling feeling. On top of that, I had two dreams that confirmed for me that this wasn’t the place for me.

Still, I was staying in a temporary booking with limited time to find housing, walking around with my children and three cats, and lacking the credentials typically required in France since I had just moved from Barcelona. It felt like I had no real choice.

But just three days before I had to vacate the booking, I found another apartment. I had turned down the studio that was initially offered to me, despite the pressure. This new apartment was in a better neighborhood, around the same price, and—most importantly—it had a window. A real window that let in sunlight. It felt right.

The point of this story is simple: in this matrix, fear of the unknown can make us accept less than we deserve. It can make us settle for options the system throws our way, convincing us they’re our only ones. But being chosen—or simply being intentional about living your life—means learning how to resist the pressure and reclaim your power in decision-making.

You have to know what you want. That doesn’t mean never compromising—but it does mean never under-serving yourself.

Let me ask:
How many of us have sat in a salon chair, watching a stylist do something outrageous to our hair, but stayed quiet out of fear of offending them?
Or been in a restaurant, received a wrong or subpar order, and stayed silent so as not to “make a fuss”?

While those moments might seem small, if they happen often, they point to a deeper issue: a fear of standing up for your desires and boundaries. If that fear becomes habitual, you leave yourself wide open to being guided by the will of others—many of whom are simply characters playing out their roles in this system, often unaware of the greater spiritual narrative.

Since childhood, I’ve had recurring dreams about buses. Sometimes I was at the front. Sometimes at the back. Sometimes waiting, other times getting off or on. The bus has always symbolized the direction of my life. And for much of my past, I was not driving—I was a passenger, subject to wherever the route led. It wasn’t until I began waking up spiritually that I realized: I had to drive the bus.

How to Stop the Matrix from Hijacking Your Destiny and Decisions

1. Pay Attention to Inner Promptings and Dreams
God often gives us insight through dreams and intuitive nudges. Don’t ignore them. They are tools to help you discern the right path—even when logic or fear says otherwise.

2. Don’t Let Pressure Rush Your Decisions
Whether it’s a living situation, a job, or a relationship—avoid making rushed decisions under pressure. Take a pause. Ask for guidance. When we make decisions from fear, we align with the matrix, not with God’s plan.

3. Practice Saying “No”
You don’t owe anyone an explanation for protecting your peace. Start small if you need to—correct a wrong food order, speak up at the salon, set a boundary with someone trying to manipulate your time. These moments build inner authority.

4. Use Your Voice and Your Faith Together
Pray. Declare your intentions out loud. Use Scripture, affirmations, and decrees to realign your spirit with God’s will—not the system’s manipulation. This is active spiritual warfare.

5. Learn to Discern the NPC Energy
Not everyone is sent by God. Some people are distractions or agents of delay. Test the spirits behind offers, relationships, and opportunities. Just because something is available doesn’t mean it’s meant for you.

In a world constantly trying to program your steps, learning to stand up for yourself is spiritual warfare. It's a declaration that you will not be led by fear, manipulation, or false urgency. You are chosen, and you were meant to live intentionally—not by default.

Dreams are fascinating. They are one of the ways the spiritual world communicates with us, revealing what is soon to manifest in the physical realm and what is happening behind the veil in the unseen. Prophetic dreams can unveil unholy covenants, witchcraft activities, betrayals, spiritual mishaps, and hidden plots—just as easily as they can foretell joyful, divine events.

Not all dreams hold significance. Some are simply the result of an overstimulated mind or daily anxieties. However, the dreams that linger—those you remember vividly or those that stir an emotional response—are often the ones that demand attention. These are the dreams that carry spiritual weight.

God frequently uses dreams to warn, prepare, and equip His people. Through dreams, we are given previews of the enemy’s strategies before they can fully take root in the natural. When we are spiritually attuned, we can pray against what we’ve seen and cancel the assignment before it manifests. It is a divine interception.

How to Identify a Prophetic Dream

1. Clarity and Emotion: Prophetic dreams often come with a heightened sense of clarity or emotion. They may seem more vivid than others and carry an unmistakable feeling that “this means something.”

2. Repetition or Patterns: If you keep having a similar theme, symbol, or scenario in multiple dreams, pay attention. Repetition is one of God's ways of confirming a message.

3. Biblical or Symbolic Language: Many prophetic dreams contain spiritual metaphors or language consistent with scripture—snakes, storms, weddings, births, and fires are all symbolic and require interpretation.

4. A Sense of Urgency or Instruction: These dreams often leave you feeling the need to act—whether to pray, fast, distance yourself from someone, or move in a new direction.

Understanding the Message

Interpreting a dream is a sacred process. Ask God for wisdom. Look for the symbols and pray about their meanings. Sometimes what appears to be a negative dream (e.g., being chased, falling, losing something) is not a curse but a warning or spiritual revelation of what's happening behind the scenes.

Why the Enemy Fears Your Dreams

The devil works overtime to confuse or distract believers from decoding their dreams because he knows they expose him. When you are spiritually aware of the schemes being plotted against you, you are harder to trap. Prophetic dreams strip him of his element of surprise. They offer spiritual intelligence.

Keep a Dream Journal

If you're serious about understanding the language of your dreams, keep a journal by your bed. Write them down immediately upon waking—even if it’s just fragments. Over time, patterns and confirmations will become clearer. God often builds messages over time, layering insight through consecutive dreams.

Personal Symbolism vs. Collective Symbolism

It’s important to understand that dreams are highly personal. What something means to one person may not carry the same meaning for another. For example, dreaming of a lion may symbolize courage and divine strength to one person, while for another it could signal danger or confrontation, depending on their experiences and spiritual lens.

However, there are also universal symbols that tend to carry similar meanings across the board because we are all connected through a shared consciousness. As inhabitants of this realm, we are influenced by common archetypes, language, and collective spiritual memory. So while dream interpretation is deeply individual, certain symbols—like snakes, water, babies, or weddings—often show up with widely understood meanings.

The key is discernment. Take note of how the dream made you feel, what was happening in your life at the time, and what specific themes or symbols stood out. Prayer and spiritual guidance will always bring clarity.

Final Thoughts

We are spiritual beings living in a physical world. Prophetic dreams are one of the tools God uses to guide, protect, and elevate us. Do not dismiss them. With prayer, discernment, and scriptural understanding, you can turn your dream life into a powerful prophetic compass—illuminating both blessings and battles before they appear.